Blockages out of me

I want these blockages out of me

I want to buy happiness from the store

I just want to be happy with myself

This life is not a waste

Even I just thought it is

I just want to travel so far away

To be in the bus so long

That my worries go away with wind

What happens when driving away

I just want to skip this part of my life

And wake up when it’s over

When I’m with colorful flowers and beside a lake

Or river

Where my worries can also go away

I just really want to go away on the bus

I just wanna feel

I just really wanna fucking feel and heal and laugh and scream in the rain

Where these fucking blockages evaporates away

I feel nothing

But pain and suffering

I don’t enjoy this life

Food tastes crap

Drinking cold drinks saves me

I don’t even feel empty

I just feel nothing

And I wanna feel EVERYTHING.

🖤: Ajatusperhonen